Thank You's

I have so many reasons to complain, but I don't, one might ask why even with all the hardships we have had in 2009. I just know that there are others out there facing way more hardships. I still have my home, and a healthy family, that is worth so much more than I could have imagined. Life throws you curve balls, and as our Father reminded us at Mass recently... he said, " Sometimes God doesn't like what he see's that you are doing, and gives you awhile to change what you know that you can, but if you don't... Whack, down comes the hammer." I believe he spoke to several in our parish, and things are changing. I am in school, and my boyfriend is on a new path for himself. Might be a bit of a struggle, but we are making it. Each day forward is a leap later ... I was woken this morning by our little guy.. almost 18 months old, and I rushed to him, and he gave me this great big morning hug, then wanted down, he immediately ran for the bathroom door, opened it, and flushed the toilet.. baby steps.. in a couple of days we will bring in his own potty that he got from Santa... its the little things that just make me smile. I was not prepared to wake up at 5am, as I had gone to sleep at midnight after making Thank You cards, and doing a bit of studying for the final this Monday... so after he had a little cup of milk and a drink of water, I put him back into bed with a couple of books and a night light.. sure enough, he was back to sleep in minutes.. we later woke up at 9:30.. had breakfast, and he's back to sleep at 11... soon we will head to my in laws.. Nana is home from visiting her Mom, and will love to see her little guy.. who as I looked at him this morning, must have grown some while asleep, he appeared taller, so maybe in a week or so, his 2T pants wont need that roll of the cuff.. He's so long in the torso that we are grateful for the 2T shirts he got... I packed up his 12-24 mos clothes the other day.. sometimes I wish that I hadnt gotten fixed and we could have another one, but right now is definitely not the time to be thinking babies, and deep down, I am glad we are blessed with our spirited little one.

Life is a journey, sometimes it might feel like you are alone, but if you turn ever so slightly, there is someone there. Either in the form of a spouse or loved one, to a rambunctious toddler showing you his way.

Happy New Year!!!

My great Hope is that this year continues the approval from 2009... it was such a wonderful start in 2009 but slowly everything fell apart. My boyfriend lost his job, and we had to cut back on everything, and go without even the littlest of things. We looked at it as a bad thing in the beginning, but now I am back in school, our son will start day care and meet new little friends. And as soon as I am done with school, my boyfriend will go to school, might not have been how we planned it, but its a start. And we are trying, at least that is happening. Can't get anywhere without it. So that is how we kicked off the New Year, continued our financial conservatism and just enjoyed the night at home with our little family. This year will bring progress even though deep in our hearts its the right journey, it still sucks terribly to have a job loss. Your life isnt your own, bills have to be shuffled, and that was never something I liked, even when single, but now, we are a family and things have taken on a new priority. We are grateful, and will continue to grow. I hope to keep an ongoing blog that I had started several months ago, I hope to at least write once a week. With school and a small child, and home to contend with, those take priority over blogging, but I will try and get a few words down when there is time.

SNOW DAY HELL!!!

So Yesterday on Dec 28th, 2009 I was in school and saw my teacher looking out the window, and I asked what are you looking at, her reply, "its snowing" it was very small flakes, nothing important, 5 minutes later it was an inch high on the cars.. it went from 0 to Hell in less than a half and hour, and the forecast was for rain. SO when class was over, I left, at 3pm, I didnt even make it home 5 hours later, I made it to my in laws home.. When I left I got on the freeway and headed home, its about a 30 minute drive to and from school, its all freeway and nice.. but since I was sitting with a quarter tank of gas, I knew I should get off, get gas, before traffic got ugly, to late.... it was ugly, the exit I took because it was a familliar one, turned into the worst winter driving night mare. So many people dont know how to drive in the snow where I live, its unreal, they think if you have money a sports car will do, but the logic doesnt work that way with snow and ice. So me in my 4 cylinder car, made it up and over mountains and hills, covered in snow and ice. I finally got gas after 4 hours of fighting stop and go traffic, more like stop, park for 30 minutes and move a bit. I wasnt scared, nervous, but worried a bit about whether or not the gas would make it. I finally got gas, the attendant said if I took this tiny street and down two more streets, I would get to where I needed to go, MY INLAWS. Just before my phone died, I called my boyfriend told him that I was headed to his parents house since I was near by. And I made it....

Returning to School...

i am nervous, excited and a bit sad all rolled into one. My boyfriend lost his job and so there is that bit of stress, but thank goodness for savings, stocks, and well, parents! But we felt that in order to get control of something better for us, we have decided to return to school. I will be working on getting my CMA license. And he will be staying with our son during the times I'm at school. I will miss him dearly, having spent the first 15 months of his life, never being apart for more than a few hours a week. So the one good part besides bettering myself. Is school is during the times that my son is at his best... nap times LOL :)

It will be an 8 month class and I am so excited for the hands on working.. drawing blood doesnt bother me, that is why I chose the CMA, because I think if i went for the LPN or R.N. i would have to see a bit more than I think I could stomach.. but all is good, like getting use to a babies dirty diapers, you just have to suck it up and get it over with..